Continuous dream from last night...

Waking up as my body was on shore. I couldn't feel my body or anything but coldness... loneliness... I crawled up and noticing my finger nails falling off I looked at my hand and chunks were missing from my hand and even a finger... My flesh were falling off me as if there's nothing to hold it back... I see my bones on my legs and ribs... How am I still alive... I wondered... I stood up and kept walking and walking and walking... I ended up in front of a church... I can hear the piano playing the wedding song I opened the door in and there they were getting ready to be married. I smiled for his happiness then she walked towards me and kicked me to the ground. I barely had anything left to stand on as is... He came over and wanted to help me then she said Bride: Finish her! Groom: What do you mean finish her? Shes hurt shes needs help! Bride: If you want to be with me forever I want to see you finish her! I want to see when this bitch will give up and go away forever! He stood there and knells down to me. Me: I came... to be at your wedding... Im your best man... remember...? I reached in my pocket and pulled out the ring... Groom: Im sorry. I don't want you to see this. He reached up and with his thumb poke out one of my eyes. I sat there in no pain but cried to how he can turn on our friend ship all this time. I tried to reach up to him and she kicked the last arm I had holding me up. He reached for the other eye and as he did that I reached inside of my stomach and broke off a rib fast and stabbed him in the stomach. The bride didn't even care. he fell to the floor and she stepped over us and walked away.

How Could You...

My best friend told me he was engaged today and wanted me to be his best man but wouldn't tell me who it was. he said he wanted to Surprise me so he set up dinner for 3 at a nice restaurant. I agreed to go so he picked me up and we sat down waiting for her. 30 minutes pass time and she still wasn't there. Finally My BFF and I sat there talked and had fun and didn't noticed she was standing right there starring at us. My BFF stood up fast and pulled out her chair. I stared at her wondering how could he marry this person but I was happy for him cause he would be happy. This woman sat down and starred at me without blinking. Picked up her glass of wine splashed it in my face all over my white blouse and flipped the table on me. I stood up fast to dodge the table as I look at him with the WTF look. He tried to come to me but stopped Fiancee: Where do you think you're going? My BFF: What you did was insane she didn't do anything to you. Fiancee: Well I don't like her and I don't ever want to see you near her or talk to her anymore you hear me?! My BFF: But shes my best friend... Fiancee: If you want to marry me be with me I don't ever wanna see her again in my life. I looked at him and he turned away form me and walked back to her. While the entire restaurant looked at me with pity eyes. Me: What did.. I do to deserve this? he looked away from me as I stormed out the door into the rain. He never came for me... we are best friends how could he do this. I walked in the hard hail rain all night alone in the dark... I reached a bridge and stood on top held onto the rail and closed my eyes as lighting and thunder hit the pole it strikes me and I fell down... black out... straight down into the dark cold water...

What happened to your promise...?

I opened my eyes and moved my hand as it slowly glides above the wet grass of morning mist. The sun coming through the leafs of the trees I rolled over to my side to sit up and maybe I sat up too fast but there where sparks everywhere around me. It was beautiful I looked around me and there was a pond an amazingly beautiful one as you can see sparkles like glitter dancing upon the water.

I stood up and walked over to the pond and sat down as I look at myself in it. But... I saw nothing. I reached my hand into the water and scooped a hand full of water as it slowly drains from my hands down to my elbow I quickly take a sip of it. It felt refreshing as I splashed the rest of it on my face. I reached back down again for another scoop and there I was, my reflection. I look closer and realized the scars on my face. My skin was ruined with big scars across my face. I sat there as i trace the scars with my finger feeling the pain as if they were new wounds... then suddenly...

I can hear a a piano playing from a distance. Just listening to it made me feel like a soothing voice speaking to me calling me to come closer. It made me forget the pain I felt from the scars... I stood up and headed towards the soothing sound as I reached a meadow...

There you were sitting there as the sunlight comes down on you as if it was a movie, an anime or one of those Disney cartoons those fairy tales... It was so dreamy. I walked over and stood by the Piano as your eyes were closed playing the Piano as if you played with your heart. I looked at the piano and saw my reflection the scars were gone...

As I was still wondering where my scars were I didn't realize when you stopped playing. You reached for my hand and pulled me into your lap as you lay your gentle lips on mine kissing me passionately.

I will never leave you no matter what happens.

You said as your lips were still partially on mine. I kissed you again as I whisper gasping for air cause you take my breath away

What if I become ugly one day... Will you still love me?

You opened your eyes and looked into mine

I will never leave you no matter what happened. Its whats inside you that I love not how you look. Your look is just a plus but your heart is gold, it's what I treasure.

I sat up and leaned on your shoulder as I lay my hand on the piano.

Play me another song... from your heart.

You started to play a beautiful song, I can feel my heart beating to the beat as I close my eyes moving to the song. I started feeling the pain on my face I panicked and looked into the Piano for my reflection and there they were my scars... all over my face...

Do you promise?

You stopped playing and asked as I dive my face into the palm of my hands. I stood up

Promise what?

That you wont leave me no matter what happens...?

I promise.

I raised my face up with the salty tears running down my face burning my pain even more. I turned around and looked at you. You looked at me shocked as you stood up too and slowly backed up

But... you promised...

You kept moving backwards...

I'm... I'm... sorry... I can't...

You turned around and ran off into the woods. I ran after you in tears. I kept running and running and finally i reached an edge of a cliff... I cried thinking of your face... the face you had when you looked at me and ran off as if you saw a monster... I stood up and looked up at the sky and smile as I dived down in the deep cliff with no bottom...

The Pond Of Sadness

We stood there by the big oak tree as he looks far in the distance with those sad eyes wanting to touch his face and wipe away those sadness that indented in his face as a print of an agony painting dripping of sorrow. He started to walk and I walked right beside him quietly... as memories flooded my mind of him and I laying there below the tree talking happily...

We started to walk by a house as he stopped and touched the wall and had a very sad smile on his face even though it was just a glance I can tell it was good memories he had here. I stood next to him as I reached up to the wall myself and I can feel his pain his sorrow... and all our memories collapsed on me in this house... it was ours. Memories all coming back to me as if I was there right now in his arms... but I'm not. I'm just right next to him as he walks away sadly... I ask myself... why is he so sad. why can't i put myself to hold his hand... touch him... feel him... But instead I walk beside him sadly. I want to comfort him... but something makes me sadly walk beside him watch him as he slowly seem to die in pain...

He moves on as time flies I never noticed but we moved so fast as if we just kept moving from room to room with a different scene of a sad movie. We reached a Pond when I started to feel pain all over my body. I panicked and looked at him for help when I noticed tears were falling from his beautiful sad face. I tried to reach for him as he fell to the floor... There were no memories I could see here at this pond... but pain... the pain ripping my body apart I held myself shaking as i fell to the ground. He called my name... I hear echos of him screaming my name I looked up as he slowly walks into the water. I stood up fast and ran to him trying to stop him but i ran right through him. In shock... I fell into the water and as i fell down I went straight to the bottom and memories came fast as a flow down the river...

The memories were him and I, walking to this Pond as I saw a beautiful Lotus (cause its my name) and wanted it but I couldn't reach it he reached in for me and got me one as he laid a kiss on my forehead. I was greedy and reached down for more he tried to pull me back but by time i noticed I saw these yellow eyes down below in the water it came up to me fast a big alligator snatched my arm and pulled me down oh the pain seemed so painful and real. It pulled me down as it threw me back and forth breaking my bones in my body. I can still see him screaming for help jumping in as he tries to release me... after all that all I can remember and see was my body broken as I laid in him arms... he also had blood all over him crying in pain as he cried screaming my name...

The memories stopped there. I stood up and looked at him as he slowly walks into the pond. I cried and called his name and he stopped and looked around

Mya?

I walked to him and tried to hug him as if he could feel me... the wind started to blow and he stopped moving and took a long breathe and slowly walked back to land. He wiped away his tears

I'll always love you.

End Of The World

I was driving fast through what looks like an abandon city just speeding as i barely made it out side of the city slaming on my breaks. There was a big fight ahead as my car swirved some of the people from the fight headed my way. I backed up fast... My back wheels ran over a bike and got stuck. Those people started beatin on the car broke the windshield. I let out a scream as rain poured down i heard
LET HER GO!
I looked over at the crowd as Christian fights his way to me. Two held on to me and the rest went to take Christian down but it didnt stop him as he got closer i felt a stab through my chest... The look on Christians face was painful as i look down at my chest there was a sword coming out of it. Christian fell to his knees... Let out a loud roar as the mob surrounded him and the place exploded.

His Warmth

Walking down the dark streets as I can feel warm tears falling from my eyes. I stop and slowly hold out my hands as tears over flow even more and gently land on the palm of my hands as it fills up I fell to my knees and splashed my hand full of tears into my face as I sat there wondering what to do.. I felt cold drops falling on my back and shoulders giving me the chills. I look up watching the rain drops fall down in slow motion slowly fusing in with my tear rolling down my face. I close my eyes and laid my face into the palm of my hands where I can still feel the warmth from the tears I have shed.

Are you alright?

A gentle voice echoed by my ears as i open my eyes and looked up. The rain was like a full curtain covering up the space between me and him as he reaches his hands out to me. I lay my hands in his and he gripped onto me and pulled me in closer and he held me tight. The cold I felt from the rain was no longer there all I felt was the warmth of his heart... his body heat...

I'll always be here for you, no matter what.

I thought to myself as I held on tight to him hoping this will never end.

A Chinese Wedding to a Prince

In a red Chinese wedding dress as I walk next to a very tall handsome guy that I can't point my finger on to if I know him or not. I've never seen him before at least not from memories. But he is so cute and has a wonderful smile as we walk into this big tall building attached to something that looks like an old school that i remember from in Vietnam. As we got inside it was totally different. Talking about don't judge a book by its cover... Inside was like a Chinese castle that you see in the Chinese movies. A smaller version of it.

As we got the ceremony went on we bowed to the gods, elders and to each other as I was lead into our room. I laid there and waited for the groom, my husband. He walks in and slowly closes the door and lifts up the red veil over my face gave me a kiss. Then a knock on the door interrupted us. He went to open the door and a couple walks in.

Man: You do know this is our castle right? We have 3 castles why did you pick this one? I was married first with my wife into this castle. You need to move to the other.

Husband: My wife want a small place. And this is the smallest Palace we have.

My husband walked outside and talked to them and came back in and reached out for my hand as I pouted

Me: But this is our night...

He turned over looked at me kissed me on my lips

Husband: I'll make it up to you.

I smiled and nodded as we walk back out to the wedding carriage. He let me in the carriage as we move to the next castle.

We arrive to a bigger more noticeable castle this time. We did the same ceremonies and what not as if we were getting married all over again. I was walked to the wedding room and not long after that there comes my husband. He came in and walked over to me removed my red veil all over again and kissed me on the lips. Sat down next to me as he slowly opened up my dress... and then we hear a knock on the door. I pouted as he stands up and walks towards the door i grabbed him back. He turns back to me and kisses me gently with his pretty face and walked tot he door. He walked outside for a little while. Came back in and sat next to me.

Husband: My beloved wife. I'm sorry we can't stay in these smaller castles but these were already married to my brothers. My parents signed and had an agreement that the biggest castle would be mine. The Lawyer spoke to me just now and said in the biggest castle out of all 3 has a small house in the back if that makes you comfortable.

I smiled and looked up at him as I squeeze his hand.

Me: It don't matter baby. As long as I'm with you nothing really matters.

We both stood up and walked out the door hand in hand smiling as I leaned my head to your arms holding on tight. He walks me back out to the carriage as we move to the next castle.

I fell asleep as we were on the way and when the carriage stopped. I looked up and saw a huge castle... It was so big I would of never thought of seeing one outside of a movie (mind you this is a dream lol). It was beautiful...

My husband lifted the carriages curtain and let out his hand. I gave him my hand as i stepped out of the carriage shocked still as he chuckled looking at my face. We both walked in as we pass all these soldiers with instruments playing the wedding music. All these maids throwing rose petals everywhere... We did the ceremony again... married 3 times to the same man in the same day to 3 different castles. I was happy just to be there knowing this is just a dream but I planned on enjoying it while it lasted. This time my husband walked me to our room. Slowly walked me to our bed blew out all the candles... walked over to me as he slowly removed my clothes and laid me down... He leaned over to me as he kisses my neck...

Husband: I'm the luckiest man in the world...

His hands caressed my naked body under the cover as he discovers my body with his lips and tongue... From being gentle to a little rough from the excitement and moaning i let out...