Tuesday, February 12, 2013

I don't want you without your heart

Walking down the street that seems not even one bit familiar to me people seem different as I kept walking and walking and finally the road lead off to a lake. As i got closer I see him standing there looking at the lake back towards me. I came closer and stood behind him.

I'm sorry this has to end this way.

He stood there silently after saying that with his back still facing me. The wind came around giving chills down my spine...

I can't look at you in the face after what I did and what I'm still doing. I haven't been faithful to you and I lied to you. There's someone else I want to be with.

I reached up to him hoping to make him change his mind but then I stopped and thought to myself. If he want to leave me for someone else whats the point in holding him back even if I have his body I wont have his heart. If he really loved me he wouldn't of ever thought of anyone else. So I backed up and wiped my tears

I knew it a long time ago. I knew about her. I just didn't want to lose you so I kept it to myself. But... having you next to me but your mind else where isnt what i want from you. I love you I DO want you for the rest of my life... but not like this. I love you and I want to see you happy... Even if it's not with me.

I turned around and slowly walked away trying to hold my cry back but it was impossible. Since I couldn't hold my cry back I knew I was going to cry out loud I ran away holding my face hoping he wouldn't hear it. Suddenly I felt his firm grip of my arm and he hugged me held onto me tight.

I do love you... I'm sorry I don't want to hurt you... But it's already done I can't forgive myself so I feel as if you deserve someone better then me...

I cried on his chest till I was able to talk again. I pushed him a little and backed up to look at his face then he turns his face away his eyes looking down on the ground

Yes, you did hurt me... And no you aren't sorry... and you are right. I do deserve someone better... someone that really loves me...

I turned away and walked as fast as I could then started to feel dizzy and blacked out.