Tuesday, June 29, 2010

The day I lay down I dont stop falling

I was walking mindlessly down a brick road as i see myself walking to the edge of the mountain i looked down and stood there shivering as the wind breaks through my jacket. I sat down and felt this warm air as if someone was there holding me.

I closed my eyes to enjoy the warm feeling surrounding me then suddenly it was colder then Ice. I opened my eyes to find myself in the dark alone as i look ahead of me there was nothing but a pitch dark alley. I took a few steps back and turned around as i fell and kept falling with no bottom.

I closed my eyes hoping id splatter so fast there will be no pain but it stopped. I was floating in thin air. Opened my eyes just to see an open field, green trees, beautiful flowers and butterflies everywhere. My mind went loose and forgot all bout what just happened.

As i kept walking i reached a meadow where there was a cute little bunny. I walked over to it and so stood on its feet looking at me. I came down on my knees and held my hand out the rabbit came to me.

As i was petting it, it turned around and looked me in the eyes. As its eyes got wider and wider it started bleeding and it bite me. As i stood up my hand was bleeding the rabbit ran off.

Blood was just flowing out of me as if i was a river more and more until blood reached my knee i fell down into the river of my own blood and started drowning. I tried to swim out of it but something pulled me down everything was spinning i closed my eyes as i cried for help. Then everything stopped.

I was scare dot open my eyes and find out where i was. So i stood there moving my hands around trying to see if anything was near by. Started to move my feet but apparently there was nothing underneath me. Curious to where i was i opened my eyes.

I looked around there were clouds and i looked down at my feet there was no bottom i started falling and falling...

And i woke up.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Work?

I went to work and apparently we got a big truck of shipments. I kept working and working and more keeps piling up. The next thing you know i was surrounded by boxes and couldnt get out. More boxes were piling up as i yelled for help and no one responded but they kept stacking and stacking as if they were they didn't want me to get out. I looked around for a hole of some sort to look out if i can see anything. finally found one and i peaked out of it. Everyone is working as well but no one had as much as i did everyone had bout 1 pallet. I started yelling for help then maintenance came by with their big machine which makes a lot of noises and i heard beeping noises as i wonder what it was i looked behind me of course there was a wall of boxes.

I stood there starring at that wall and the walls closed in closer and closer when both walls basically sandwiched me i closed my eyes as to not wanting to see whats going to happen next it stopped. I opened my eyes a little and nothing. The i heard some noise above my head I looked up and theres this machine dropping a bunch of boxes down at me and i woke up.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Passionate Love

You and I sitting there in the dark looking at our toes laughing as to how funny they look when you actually compare them to each others. We sat and seemed as if we talked forever. I took one glance at you just to get caught as i look down fast blushing till you reached your hand over to lift my face as you lay that gentle kiss down on my lips as if they were magnet.

I felt the tingle down my body as i reached my hand up to your face touched it gentle then ran it by your ear down to your shoulder. You ran your hand through my hair as the wind blows it dancing slightly by my bare back.

Opened my eyes to find us in a fancy restaurant in fancy clothing. I was in an evening gown with an open back gown my hair was so long was braided and curled as some of my hair covered part of my back my shoulders and collar bone was showing with a few curled hair bouncing as if they were calling for attention. As i was looking down at what i was wearing you slowly walked behind me and laid a gentle kiss on my shoulder and held my hand as we walked to our seat.

Our date was beautiful with candle lights glittering as the fire was shown through your eyes. I couldn't take my eyes off of yours. The candle light dimmed and everything was dark. I couldn't see a thing as i got scared and called for your name. As i was reaching for you i felt a warm body. A naked chest as i run my hands to your face i can feel you slowly moving towards my face i closed my eyes and you kissed my neck and slowly ran your hand through my hair and down to my body. As you caress my body i giggled from your lips and tongue running by my side. You lay me down slowly as you climb on top of me kissing my body away as if you were craving for it so a long time.

You moved down and kissed my thigh as i pulled back and let out a little laugh. You move back up to me looked in my eyes and smiled as you kissed me passionately...

And yeah... no need to tell the rest lol

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Grim Reaper

Found myself on the warm white glittery sand laying there as i feel the cool breeze pass by every second or two as the warm sun melts the chill. Surrounding me families and families just everywhere as I lay and watch the kids play in the sand and water. I sat up turned around to my cooler to get something to drink and i heard screaming coming from ahead i looked over theres this huge shark crawling to shore i thought to myself

What on earth is a shark doing on shore is one thing wtf he's crawling?

As i was shocked and people panicking running pass me. i sat there and there was the shark headed towards me. It swarmed its way to me it was so big and snap at me I was in its mouth. It was dark i started screaming and tried to tear my way out till I heard a gun shot i stopped and another gun shot was fired back to back. They kept going and going then i started feeling chest pain as i looked down I got shot 3 times. I fell down to the sharks tongue and laid there waiting for death to come along and pick me up. It got cold and dark...

I woke up with no more pain and it was still dark I sat up and looked around its so dark and I cant see a thing. Suddenly a very bright light hit me in the eye and almost blinded me.

Do you see anything in there?

One man asked the other

I think i see someone in there.

Then the sunlight hit in i closed my eyes.

Pull her out.

I think she's dead.

I looked at them with a confused look thinking i'm looking at you right now how is that being dead. Then i saw them looking below me not at me. I looked down there was my body laying there covered in my own blood.

Oh my god, I didn't know it had someone in it. I killed a little girl.

Dude, You didn't know don't be too hard on yourself.

Is she still alive?

Let me check.

The guy reached down and checked my pulse. He looked up at the other guy.

She's gone.

I sat there thinking oh my god what do I do now. Many times trying to lay down into my body seeing if it works. Thinking *god dang it! It works in some of the movies!*.

The ambulance came and took my body away as i tried to follow it but their was a force field that wouldn't let me pass. I can't leave here what do I do? I thought to myself and i started crying. It got very dark and a black portal opened up in front of me i started to back out. A black shadow slowly crawled out of it heading towards me.

It's time

Saying that with the creepiest voice ever. I was scared and turned around and ran. As i was looking back it reached its long arms at me and grabbed me by the waist as the portal gets smaller it was still pulling me in I fought back and tried to stay out of the portal as the portal got smaller hoping it will just disappear. The portal was about only 2 foot long i got tired... and it finally pulled me faster into the portal as it broke all my bones in my body to squeeze whatever that was left of me in. I woke up choking.

Friday, June 11, 2010

I miss you...

I sat there and noticed i'm looking down at my toes... little kids toes. As the wiggle away i look up to see daddy walking over to get me. I reached my arms out to him and he picks me up as he sits me on his shoulder. I missed him so much since he's passed away... why am i a child?

I looked around and we were at the zoo with my 2 sisters my little brother and mom.

I yelled HIPPO HIPPO! as we walked pass it. My dad stopped so i can see the baby hippos being lazy in the dark slimy water. Next think i knew it was there by the hippos as one turns over and knocks me into the water.

I started drowning since i didn't know how to swim and i was bout 5 years old it seemed. I started panicking under water as i slowly gave up a pair of strong arms pulled me out. As i opened my eyes it was the same guy... the guy i dreamed of having a family with... he saved me.

When i sat up i noticed the difference in my body's weight. I looked at my hands and legs... I'm a grown up now?

I stood up and looked around for him as i see him walking away in a distance. I ran to him and no matter how fast i ran i couldn't reach him and all he did was walk. Go got more distance as i tried to reach him. I stopped and watch him walk away.

I woke up calling his name. I hope to dream of you again soon. Love you.

Lien Mya Nguyen

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Creatures?

Woke up in the middle of the night cold opened my eyes and looked up expecting a ceiling and there was nothing but the dark beautiful sky with full stars like sprinkles on a cupcake. It was a full moon that lights down on me I sat up to notice that around me are a lot of kids sleeping next to me. I looked at myself to notice I'm just a little kid myself. Suddenly a big wind breezed by as it was gently hovering over my shoulders and the wind howled to my ear. Then i heard a whisper but I couldn't figure out what it was. I can tell the other kids heard it as well. They all sat up and in seconds they started changing their bones started cracking as their arms and legs gotten longer their back bones had spikes on them and they darted out in the dark as I sat there staring into thin air. I lay back down thinking to myself

This is just a dream and closed my eyes. From a distance i heard something heading towards me and really fast I sat up quickly to be prepared for whatever it was and then my body started changing I can feel the hot blood pumping through my veins I can feel the power. Even though I was still shock i was ready for whatever it was heading towards me and it stopped right outside of the light and slowly walked in. It's one of the kids that was here.

Are you coming?

It asked me. I nodded and ran off with it. My legs were so strong as i jumped and darted into the sky It was amazing. I never felt this was before its like i can fly. We reached our destination. It was an old building vacant ashes all around. We slowly crawled around the corner to get inside without being caught. I was just crawling till i stepped on something and fell. I looked down to see what i stepped on it was my tongue? My tongue was long as I slouched down. I had to roll it up and stick it back in my mouth. I couldn't imagine how deformed I looked. As we got in we ran up stairs and got into a room where there was white sheets over all the furniture in the room. I wasn't sure what we were looking for but we were all searching. I heard something behind me as i turned over fast prepared to attack it I let out a small scream as i saw myself in the mirror. Bloody tears started falling to see how I truly looked I stood there unguard then something jumped out and attacked me.

We battled back and fort I can barely see what it was I was fighting. I let all my spikes out and twisted myself to get out of that grip and rolled over it with my bonely back spikes. It was dead I walked closer to see what it was it was a creature... I couldn't even describe what it was or what it looked like. As I prayed for it i opened my eyes it changed back into a little girl about my age.

I looked behind me as I heard a lot of growling noises there was more a lot more. And I was alone. I stood there ready to fight for my life then this pain hit me my entire body from meat to bone from vein to muscle was aching so bad as if I was in a boiling pan of oil. By time the pain was over i looked at my hands it was my normal size. I'm not a monster anymore nor am I a little girl. I looked over to the mirror and there i was as normal as can be. Behind me in the mirror comes these creatures.

They all jumped at me and started tearing me up alive. Pieces by pieces I were taken away as I was awake to witness it all. I told myself wake up its a bad dream wake up its a bad dream and there i was awake sweating breathing heavily.

I stood up to go wash my face closed my eyes as I washed my face and as i looked up in the mirror was that creature broke my neck.

And I woke up.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

The past over and over again...

Me and my sis Mai (deceased) were just on the road going on a road trip. We drove and talked having so much fun. We drove pass a desert and our car stopped. We got out and tried to figure out whats wrong but nothing our phones had no signal. We walked trying to see if we can find anyone to help and no one. Next thing you know its dark we walked back to our car and sleep.

I heard a loud noise opened my eyes and she was gone the door was wide open.

I got out of the car and started calling for her scared. She was nowhere to be found i fell to the floor and started crying. By time i looked up i was surrounded by trees and heard my sisters beautiful voice singing. I followed the sweet as honey voice to her just to find her sitting there surrounded by all the animals in the woods with her soothing voice. I ran in and hugged her scared. We held each other for a little while and sat down she started singing a lullaby for me as i fell asleep.

I woke up by a pounding near by to find my sister is once again gone. Where could she have gone to? I wonder. As i looked around it was dark and i was in the middle of the streets with cars running by me. My sister drove towards me on her motorcycle she scooped me up and threw me in the back seat.

I held on tight to her as i was afraid she'd leave me again... then as i opened my eyes looking at her she smiled at me and an 18 wheeler hit us... our accident was replayed after 14 almost 15 years... Just like it was yesterday...

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Step parents...

Wow up sitting there in a dark room hearing 2 people yelling and screaming at each other as i sit in the corner very quiet. I looked frightened from the loud anger from their voice then it got quiet. I stood up and walked into the closet and sat there peaking out of the door shaking and i slowly feel asleep.

I was woken up by a noise of someone walking up stairs the creaking noise gave me the chills as i bad in further into the closet. I had my hand held to my mouth as i was shaking in tears trying to stop myself from making any noises. The closet door opened then a white man grabbed me out and covered my mouth as i tried screaming for my life. He smelt like a case of old aged beer as he put tape over my mouth and threw me in bed. Thats when i noticed I look about 9-10 years old. He tied my arms up and started raping me as a little girl fighting against a 30-40 year old man i lost the battle. I can feel him ripping into me as tears drown my eyes. He was done untied me and left.

I sat up in pain walking to the bath room as blood drips out of me ripped the tape off my face as i pulled a lot of my hair out in the progress. Turn the water on and sat in the bath tub thinking bout the times when i told my drunk step mom that my step father has been raping me and she didn't believe me thinking I wanted attention just because she has attention from him. I soaked my body and picked up a knife and cut my thigh again next to the other 20 something odd marks. Each marks were every time i got raped. Letting the water soak my body take away the pain and shame i fell asleep. When i woke up i got out of the bath tub and back into bed.

It was morning mom yelled for me to go down stairs for breakfast before school. I went to the dinner table there he was as if nothing happened at all. Mom asked

Whats wrong with you? Always have to call you down!

I had a bad dream

As i stared at him he just ignored me and read his newspaper and said

Little girls having bad dreams thats normal.

My mom looked at him gently and said

Aw... you care so much.

I gave him a despite look as i stood up and walked away.

Where do you think you're going young lady?

I don't feel like eating theres something nasty at the table that makes me want to puke.

I left before my mom could let out a yell at me for disrespecting the elders which i have no respect for him at all. I stood there at the school but sign waiting then a girl walked up to me. She stood there examining me then slowly lifted up my skirt to where i had my cuts. She shook her head

You cant let him do this to you anymore you know that right? You cant live like that forever. Telling your step mom isn't going to make a difference she never really cared that much for you when your dad was alive. 2 step parents isn't the greatest life I can tell you that.Tell the police or something.

I don't know anymore Linda... But one thing for sure I want to so this myself. I want to take care of it myself.

Don't do anything crazy he's not worth it.

I'll make it worth it.

The school bus arrive we got in and went to class. My cut started bleeding and had an infection. I had a fever and passed out in school. They took me to the hospital and Linda was there with me. I woke up with mom and Linda next to me mom was crying her eye balls out.

I'm so sorry baby... I didn't know... I'm sorry i didn't believe you.

I thought to myself when i looked over at Linda. She told the doctors. Then the doctors called the police as they made all these examinations on me to prove Linda's words are right. I felt as if my step mom was fake crying so she wouldn't get involved into my step dad being arrested. I pulled my hand away from her and reached out to Linda's. Linda held my hand and sat down next to me.

I don't want to see her. Please take her out of here.

The police mens asked my step mom to leave the room. I looked at Linda

Why? Why did you tell them? I wanted to take care of this myself.

I couldn't see you suffer anymore. I'm an orphan and i know how it feels... You are like a sister to me...

Thank you Linda.

I closed my eyes to sleep. Was time to go home. They released me back to my step mom which i really didn't want to go back. She looked nice until we got in the car. She looked mad and angry at me. I was awaiting this moment for her to beat me up when we get home. We got in the house she was quiet didn't say a word i walked up stairs. and laid down in bed as i hear things just breaking down stairs. I curled up and started shaking as i went to the bathroom and picks up my knife sat there.