Friday, February 6, 2015

Teen Problems

Teen Problems

Back in our teens Zak and I we best friends. I fell in love with him but he never felt the same for me. I stayed by his side as a best friend and council with his decisions in life.

I moved out from home into a dorm in school, as did he. His roommates pushing weed on him as did mine. I didn't fall for it but Zak did. I tried to stop him but he said it's just weed and that it was safer than smoking. I told him I prefer him not to do it again. He said OK I promise.
As the school week passed I saw him sneaking around the corner and into the stairway I walked over by the door and saw him and another guy exchanging a package. After it was done he came back in and bumped into me. I asked him about it and he said it was nothing and walked right pass me. I grabbed him arm calling him he yanked his arm back hurting me. He looked like he was concerned and l but then he turned away, quickly said sorry and walked away fast. My heart broke not because he doesn't love me but because he's fallen into the wrong path and I can't help him get on the right track.
He was trying out for the football team and I was just in the marching band. My roommates one was a cheerleader and one was those popular girls you don't want to hang around with. Sadly I didn't have a choice but to stay with them. Listening to how they talk down at people but I keep my mouth shut.
One day the cheerleader said she's dating a guy name Zak slender guy with hair in his face, blue dreamy eyes and right then I knew it was Zak. She says she was using Zak to make her ex boyfriend which was the football quarter back mad and get back with her.
I went to see Zak and asked to talk to him in private he walked away from his friends and we talked. I told him what I heard and he looked at me and said I can't believe you're jealous to that extent. You don't want to see me happy, happy with another girl. I don't love you like that. You're just a friend. I looked at him in tears and said I'm just a friend to you now? Well just friends it is. I walked away.
He made it into the fraternity and I saw him less and less. I usually get a glance and a smile every now and then. Shortly after they had a party and I was invited as well as my dorm mates. They were all dressed up in heels and I wore the sweater he gave last Christmas in jeans and sneakers.
The party was huge.I walked in hoping to see Zak but I didn't see him anywhere as I walk through the crowd people were drinking, smoking and doing drugs. I decided this wasn't my place so I turned around and started to walk out as I see Zak walking upstairs. I followed him to say hi but got stopped by a couple drink guys making fun of how I dressed I pushed through them and went the direction I thought I saw Zak going. Down the hall was just the room so I opened the door walked in and didn't see him then I started hearing someone sniffle in the bathroom I pushed the door in and saw Zak doing drugs. Zak saw me and panic grabbed me so I don't run off threw me to the wall and begged me not to tell anyone. I told him he's hurting me then he dropped me panicking and saying sorry over and over. I picked myself up and ran off.
I made back to my dorm as I drowned my pillow with my tears and fell deep asleep into my sorrows.
Morning came and my eyes were shut from the swelling from crying I can barely see. Got up went to shower and get ready for school. I can gear my roommates chatting in the room and one crying. But when I got out they were already gone.
As I make it to class the principle was on the intercom and called everybody to the gym they had something important to say. We all made it to the gym as I looked around for Zak but he was nowhere to be found. The principle walked in and spoke with a disappointed voice. I'm disappointed in what went on yesterday. Drinking? Drugs? And now John Fraco (quarter back) is dead. If anyone knows anything stand up now. No one stood up of course and the meeting ended.
I went to Zak's place and walked to his room no one answered so I opened the door in. There he was laying in bed under the cover shivering. I came to his bed side and pat him on the shoulder he looked at me in tears and said I'm sorry. I held him close and laid in bed with him as I held him close to my heart I can feel his warm tears filing up the home he left when he called me just a friend. What happened Zak? I asked him gently as I stroked his hair. I should have listened to you Mya... I should of stayed away... As he holds me right. Shhssss it's OK... Talk to me. Please... I scoot down to lay side by side with him as I look into his wet blue eyes. It was an accident... I didn't mean to... My gf was upstairs with me and John came in raging, we got into a fight and when I pushed him off of me he fell onto the table and hit his head... No one saw me so I ran. I looked at him... Zak... You know that was an accident right...? You need to confess or it will be worse... But I'm scared he said as he looked at me guilty. I looked at him with tears in my eyes I'll go with you OK... I told you I'll always be here for you. He looked at me with loving eyes the look I've missed for so long and said I love you. I looked at him with confusion and said you're just scared and confused. He shook his head and said no. I always did but we were befriends and I didn't want to ruin it. I looked at him and shook my head but you did walk away from me you didn't think that would ruin our friendship? He cried and said I know... I was wrong... I don't know what I was thinking... I held him close and said I love you too... He raised my chin and kissed me passionately the kiss I've been waiting for since as long as I can remember. As our lips separate I stood up off the bed and reached out my hand. Now let's do the right thing. He sat up and took my hand. Wiped his tears and asked... Will you wait for me? I looked at him and smiled haven't I been doing that all along? He smiled and we walked to the principles office.

Monday, February 2, 2015

Fair + Ride # ???

I had a dream we were all going to a huge fair and getting on a ride. I got on a seat and the baby wanted to ride with me and I told him he can't it's not for kids his age so he cried. So the girl came over and said he can ride with you. I said um... OK. So the mom brought him over and I held him and strapped us up. The ride started and went in circles up and down the baby was screaming as if he was being murdered. The girl stopped the ride came over and asked is he OK. I said I think he's just scared. The mom came over and got him. The girl said wow surprised he didn't shit himself. Then the mom picked him off her side and looked. He did shit himself. Then I looked at my shirt where he sat and I had poo all over my side and the mom looked at her side where she was carrying him and she had poo all over her side Lol the baby cracked up laughing.